July 12: My one year anniversary!!!

Yes, today is the mark. I actually got very emotional this morning at different points, suddenly thinking "OK, exactly a year ago my chest was cracked open and my heart was stopped--I was 'dead' then and now I'm driving a car!" I remember feeling very 'something' on the year anniversary of the first one--in between the continuing gasping for breath and incredible fatigue. So, this is the first time that I've actually felt BETTER at a year-post. It's a real improvement over prior anniversaries.

Apparently Kevan is the only one who remembered the date; much easier to do for him since it fell on his birthday. I didn't hear anything from anyone else, not even those who were the most involved. I'm trying very hard not to be insulted, but shouldn't this kind of anniversary elicit some sort of response? If I wasn't broke and madly studying for my Board re-cert it might have even been worthy of a party. Or am I over-reacting?

Of course, keep in mind this is from a woman who is still in wonder and delight at the fact that I can sleep for 7-8 hours and not have to get up to pee. Yes, I know I keep bringing it up, but it's still such a novelty!

Thanks to those of you who are still checking in on me, Laurie