Jan 1, 2007: Where did the time go?!

Didn't realize that it was so long since the last post, but with the holiday I kind of got behind. Went down to Virginia with my Mom to see my cousin Beth and family. Came back Tues. Wednesday didn't have a great day at work. AR, who has been there just a year as the second PA, verbally attacked me, which was totally unexpected. Just kept at me about when I was coming back, how much longer was it going to be, would I ever be able to work full time and why didn't I quit and get a job teaching. She actually made me cry. Granted, I was tired and my right back hurt from all the shifting the day before, but I usually don't cry. But, honestly, not being able to work full time is my terror. What if I don't get substantially better? What if I am still in the same position as before, can work but nothing else. And she just sat there and kept staring at me! No apology, no concern. Totally out of left field. I'm not sure what the root of the issue is, but I will be having a little chat with her this week about how many lines she crossed over. This is someone who was calling me 4-5 times a day with the stupidist questions for eight months, because it was easier to call me and ask than to figure it out herself. And now, four and a half months after my SECOND heart surgery she wants to force me out because I'm not back full time? She gets paid regardless, and has clearly forgotten that all the benefits she gets are because of me. AND I just talked the big boss into giving her and the other PA overtime when they are there late. Nothing like showing her appreciation. I have, obviously, gotten pretty fired up and am just debating where to confront her. Anyone who has seen me mad knows you don't want to be on the receiving end. Anyway, it's a new year. Forgive me for not being all excited about how much better this year is going to be and all those platitudes, but I've been through this before. 2005 was supposed to be "so much better" after the first surgery. Once bitten, twice shy. I'm not going to get excited until I feel better and can do more. Not pessimistic, just being realistic. So, for those few of you who still check this, I hope that you are all off to a good start and recovering after the holidays. More next week, Laurie